Listening to God through tears

Last night I was a mess! Having to say goodbye to the life you have lived for the past seven years.Having to say goodbye to your husband for the last time, and having to say goodbye to those who were there for you through the roughest times throughout it all. I remember packing boxes upstairs in my closet. I was listening to my iTunes and tears, tears, tears just kept streaming down my face. I'd only felt like this one other time in my life and that was when the divorce was decided. They were tears of sadness, happiness, and being scared of what the future holds. I trust God completely, and I rejoice that he has made me human to feel the way I feel about certain situations, but it is very hard. While I could not stop crying, I text a dear, dear friend of mine, told her how much my heart hurt and this is what she text me back, word for word:

"You have what it takes Megan!!! You were CREATED with everything you need to handle all this messiness with grace...It's not something the Lord has to give you...He already put it inside you. All the strength, all the hope, and all the trust that you will ever need.  You CAN do this! :) and when it hurts so bad...That's okay. It shows that your heart is beautiful . Because only the most beautiful hearts can hurt so much and come out loving on the other side." 

WOW! First of all, I have amazing friends who help build me up and I'm forever thankful for that. While her words were so encouraging, I still couldn't swing this overwhelming sadness. I asked God, what do I need to pray for? I simply asked for peace. "Give my heart peace", I said. I remember getting distracted by something, then a burden was lifted off of me. It's literally like God said, "You are hurting and rightfully so, but I am here, and I will hold you until the pain goes away." Until recently, I never knew God could speak so clearly to me! I believe He has been speaking to me this whole time, I just haven't been listening. While the sadness is still there, God keeps reminding me of the future he has in store for me. How can I not be excited about that?!?

I encourage you to listen to God. Shut down the TV  put away your iPhone,iPad, and iPod, hide away from the family and listen. God is speaking to all of us and He has amazing things to say, we only need to listen!

Until next time,

Megs