Forgiveness

I'm in a very weird state of mind right now. My brain is active, but my body feels limp. I just forgave the last person that hurt me so incredible bad throughout this whole divorce process. I used to think that you had to forgive someone right after their offense. Time, wisdom, and God have taught me differently. To each person forgiveness will come at different times. How could you put a time frame on forgiveness. As the one who has been hurt, you are dealing with too many emotions, too many memories, too much pain, but one day the time comes to where you can look at it and say, "I'm ready".
Granted, I don't believe one will ever forget the sights, sounds, smells, and feelings of that particularly painful moment(s), but in time, the hurt will be reduced. The only thing that stinks most about these situations happening is that four little word that all of us who have gone through at one point or another hate and the word is "Time". We must be patient and learn about ourselves, trust in God, and fall to our knees in pain and suffering before the "time" comes that we can see how we have grown stronger and learn to forgive.

Myth: Forgiveness is easy. Hello!? It's the hardest thing of them all. However, it must be done. Where would I be if Christ had not died on the cross for my forgiveness? If he can die for me, a woman who sins every single day against Him, then who am I not to forgive those that have done wrong against me. It is hard, it is painful, but one can only pull the trigger and learn to forgive once they truly mean it. No taking it back once it is given. No hard feelings once it is given. The pain will remain and dissipate over time, but the joy to know you have forgiven that person and that their actions no longer haunt your very soul is victory enough.

God has granted me the peace and understanding not of my life, but of his presence in my life. His hand leads me and wherever he goes, that is where I want to be.

Megs